Coming upon the big, final session this afternoon. It's usually quite good, but I'm not much in the mood for these big celebratory yammer-fests as of late.
Generally, these 'motivational' instructive situations make me uncomfortable and bring up angst and criticisms of the forum and in my mind as I listen.
After my experiences of the past four or five years, I would really like to just not need to interact regularly with anyone in society for a few years. No one. Just brush up against personalities, spread cheer as I might, and move on. Like many past trips to Yellowstone country- if someone is friendly or compatible, see if something sticks. In reality, that's only another of my idealistic, very unlikely constructs. Generally, people are too busy and involved in their tribes and families for such transient connections.
I wonder how many people have sentiments similar to this. How many humans feel this desire to disconnect with what they perceive as a opposing force working to put its ideas, images, interests and security ideals forward and above those held by the 'idealistic' individual. Hopefully not very many; it's not often an easy place to operate from.